This Be The Verse
No amount of sleep in the world could cure the tiredness I feel,
If only my brain would stop for a second and I can take the wheel.
Stability is what I lack the most ,
Its like Im drifting like a ghost.
My head is pounding like someone dropped a hammer,
All I can do is curse and say is damn her.
Being alone in my inner sanctuary,
Is like laying in the mortuary.
Abusing and hitting things bring me the pain for those things I cannot feel.
It just makes everything more real.
I just want to stay afloat in the ocean
And disappear with its motion.
I just feel stuck like super glue
Its like a never ending flu.
I feel frozen on thin ice
Drowning with any movement no dice.
My head is spinning like a psyclone
No where to go not even my home.
Its a numbing sensation at the point
All I want to do is roll up a joint.
I have a roof over my head but feel homeless,
Never thought I could be striped and labelled worthless.
Drowning in my own tears
which seem significant to my fears.
I just want to make it silent
How can I do so without making it violent?
There’s something about you that I crave
That has woken me from this seldom cave.
I yearn for your soft touch and lingering kisses
I hope this transpires in me being your Mrs.
You overlook my flaws and see the tainted beauty
But what you don’t realize is that you’re the real cutie.
You make my heart beat fast and slow
With you I can always go with the flow.
I wouldn’t mind waking up to you every day
Every moment with you is no work N’ just play.
You make my life colorful like abstract art
I will always love you with the depths of my heart.
They say family is forever
Do or die through thick or thin.
But never have I ever
Said that with a grin.
Blood is thicker than water
But I don’t know if they would shed blood to save me.
I know I would I am their sister; daughter
But I guess we aren’t a real family you see.
Six strangers put together called family
In competition with no support.
Having snake movements like they were top agents from Langley
Never come through always abort.
Everybody sees fakes smiles and unity
But all it really is, is anger jealousy and discontent.
Actions, reactions based on the views of the community
Traditional views displaced from a brown descent.
Conforming as a women in the 70s but living in the 21st Century
Prisoner in my own home with no sense of privacy.
Living out a lifesentence in a state penitentiary
All that is left is no soul and this vacancy.
Family can’t be changed or exchanged
If I could I know a name or two to be fitting.
The only feelings that exist are estranged
And being wrong is the only thing they have a problem admitting.
I guess I got a shitty hand dealt
And the only possible solution is to learn.
Show them emotions they never felt
Through the love they havent earn’d.
I found the warmest feeling outside in a crowded parking lot
And every moment after that has never been bleek.
In moments my feelings were caught
Cause he brought the one thing I seek.
Endless chats till wee hours of the night
Yet never running out of topics.
Its as if I boarded a flight
High as the clouds on narcotics.
Express trip to happiness
Pulled out of the pit of darkness.
Every moment spent together is never enough
With every breath taken away by his soft lips
Counting down the days to see him again are tough
Relishing in thought of moving in unison with his hips.
I can’t stop smiling when you’re around me
Just the mere thought of you makes me grin.
Your voice is soothing like a hot cup of tea
Loving me endlessly even with my double chin.
It’s unfathomable how we are too alike
It’s like we are two people but one soul.
Whenever I have doubts I tell them to take a hike
You always give me support like a shoe with a sole.
My state of mind is never clear at home
But when im with you its like breathing fresh mountain air.
Like the city of love, Rome
We are a dynamic pair.
Your personality is by far your best attribute
With brown eyes I can get lost in.
The whole package with nothing else to contribute
Your very essence brings goosebumps to my skin.
You see me through my flaws and follies
Everything I could ask for n’ all of the above.
Indescribable happiness like I popped molly’s
I guess that’s what happens when you have true love.
Broken like a doll beyond repair
Limbs hanging, missing pieces; incomplete.
Messy hair, smeared makeup in despair
Staring into the abyss in the window seat.
Imperfect, shattered and obsolete
With tears streaming like a calm river.
Overflowing thoughts but nothing concrete
A gander into my darknesss will make one quiver.
We fight for equality but nothing is ever fair
Left helpless in this selfish place.
Kindness in this world seems so rare
But one must always act with grace.
The reason being is that you are a woman
Looked upon with a double standard of course.
But treated as if you’re less than human
With no voice, no choice and no remorse.
Aspirations diminished with restrictions
Minimalized like our self worth.
Suffocating with the endless constrictions
Trying to find a meaning in our birth.
Repairing the shattered fragments with adhesive
Has no use with unless words are spoken.
Even if the pieces were cohesive
The doll will always be broken.